The Door Still Keeps Me Buzzing

For the past weeks that I’ve experienced from hatred, depression, and unbelieve, I had concluded to close the “door” to that person and open another “door”. From the past door, at first, I had experienced happiness, delight, and contentment. As time goes by, bitterness and jealous overcomes us. That door decided to close his door to me and search another one that will fulfill his qualifications to him. Innocently, his door in my heart still opened, waiting to return and apologize for what he have done. Stupidity make me believe that he will come back and accept me again. It’s been so nice for him that he make me believe that he still love me, but not.
As soon the courage comes to me and face his quo, I honestly confessed my love to him, my undying love, but, he insisted my confession. He just ignored my words of bravery and told me to wake up! My heart really explode to what I have just heard from his devilish mouth. My eyes started to pour down tears to my pinkish cheeks and can’t believe that he will say that words to me. I called out all of my friends to help me out from this problem. There are such quotations that made me inspire like:
“Don’t close the door if you still love that person, if not, close it permanently.”,
“If you still love the past, it’s not a reasonable reason to open another door unless the other door from the past is now closed.”,
“You can’t cross the two lakes at the same time.”
As for that moment, another door is waiting to be opened, it is knocking too loud. I hurriedly opened that door and welcomed that person. We get to know each other, open such topics bout work, school, family, and relationships. This person suddenly confessed love to me and I try to see if this person will never make me so stupid unlike to my past. I want to have a happy, healthy, and vibrant relationship.
But here again, the past door is breaking the chains into pieces, trying to enter again and buzz my happy life with my hubby. I don’t want this person destroy our relationship just because of me. But, one question: Can I secretly love the past, just for strength and friendship, even though I have my new one now?
Please respond immediately…..
Need advices